I want to thank you for your lovely messages regarding the passing of my therapist. It was so sudden and a shock. I took a week out to sit with my feelings. My body went into sick mode and tried to deal with the news.
This week, I just concentrated on everyday tasks I needed to do and meet friends for tea, which helped, as I have moments where I think my therapist is still here and cannot believe she has gone. When I have accepted it, I feel guilty for having that brief moment where I have been laughing and just forgot for that moment, but I know she wouldn't want me to feel guilty. I can hear her saying, go with the flow of your feelings and talk to them, soothe them and do something nice. When I spoke to her about death, as I lost two people before her, she said they are not gone; they are still here as they live on in you and your memories, which I am trying to hold on to her words. I find Thursdays at 3 pm difficult as I expect her to call, which has been my routine for two years. I know it will take time for me to get used to not having our sessions at this time. My grief journal is a great help when I need to give my feelings out there. If you are suffering from grief, please know it's okay to be not okay, and everyone's journey is different, and it's okay to talk about your feelings, and there is support out there if you need to speak.
It's now time to escape into my photos. This time last week, I was another year older. I decided I would go for a walk with my camera. The chosen destination was Sherborne Park (I brought a book last year called " The Cotswolds - Great Short Walks for the Family")
I parked at Ewepen Car Park, which belongs to the National Trust; as a member, I could park for free, which was great. I got myself organised and set off with my book and camera in hand.
It was a dark cloudy day, but the view was stunning.
I headed up the track as according to my book (it wasn't easy trying to follow instructions from a book and trying to take photos at the same time 🤣), I needed to reach the sports field, which I did.
In the next part of the walk, the book said to continue up the track, and you will be above sea level, so far so good.
The views were stunning.
According to the book, I needed to carry on the track where I got to a lodge and start walking the edge of quarry wood, which I did, but I didn't see the ice house or some large stones. I saw this instead.
I got to the end of the track and came out on a farm track, so I decided to head down the path as I needed to get to Sherborne Village. The views were stunning.
I managed to find a gap in the wall and ended back into the wood.
I continued on the track and came to an end, so I had to get back onto the farm track; maybe I should have stayed on the farm track, but where would be the fun in that.
Photos from the farm track
I finally got to the village and found the track I should have come down (I think I will be doing the route back to the front next time).
The village was beautiful.
I saw a sign for the Car Park, so I headed in that direction, ditching my book to my bag and soaking up the sights.
I turned left up the track, which would take me back to the Car Park.
I arrived back at the Car Park, drove back to Chippenham and picked up some lunch at Greg's, a few snacks from Morrison's, and when I got home, it was a hot bath and a movie. It was a perfect way to spend my birthday, and I will be doing this walk again in the future.
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