It has been a tough four weeks since the scamming incident, putting one foot in front of the other. The Doctors prescribed me Diazepam, which helped calm me down and break the cycle I was in as I was living on my nerves. I am fortunate to have a fantastic support network that has helped me over the four weeks, to get this far. I have a fear of being online, and as it's heightened my anxiety and suffering with Panic attacks. I have lost my confidence and don't trust myself or others.
My Work has been fantastic. I am starting to do half days for two weeks as I need to face my fear and work through it; they will support me and get me back strong again. I will have the support of Victim Support from tomorrow, and Wiltshire Police came out and checked on me yesterday. The Community Officer showed me his ID before I allowed him to reach him, but he also advised I could always phone 101 or 999 if I didn't feel safe.
I couldn't escape my head Friday evening, so I ended up using the Employee Assistance Programme with Work and spoke to a therapist who reminded me I am brave, courageous. I have beaten the scammers as I got my money back, and advise it's easy saying it but working on it is more challenging, as my body and brain are acting to the trauma I am going through at the moment. I am taking one day at a time.
Today I met Megan from Lacock Members Photography Club at Jubliee Lake in Wooton Bassett to help me get back into my photography, and from there, we went to Lydiard Park. Megan has helped me fall in love with my photography today, and even though I am anxious about writing my blog and editing my photos, I wanted to share this. It's the first time in ages I could escape the thoughts in my head today.
Here are the photos.
Jubilee Lake
Lydiard Park
It's now time to log off, as I can feel a Panic Attack coming on.
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